I am constantly heartbroken

it's this physical pain in my chest, a breathlessness, a lump in my throat

          it feels like my heart is being crumpled into a fist

it feels like dying
no, it feels like the day i realized i never lived

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it feels like tearing my skin with a rough - edged knife ----
but worse.

it feels like loneliness

no i am never alone:

the demons in my head, your ghost that haunts me
it's clinging on my skin, it's screeching in my head

it feels like the love that dug my grave
the love that cursed my soul, my hell

it feels like dying the third time

but worst, it feels like losing you again.
- E.M.B.